Recently...

I really need to get everything together. This pregnancy has caused a major disaster, in every category of home life.

Rosie does nothing but pick at junk food and watch TV or play computer games.

My house looks like several large bombs went off...it's not clean and it's not organized.

We have zero clean dishes. I ate my cereal this morning out of a pyrex measuring bowl with a baby spoon.

I lost my home organization binder. That in itself is a horrible crisis, it had all my recipes in it. It has to be here somewhere.

Half of our stuff is packed and in storage where we were planning on moving, so we're missing a lot of stuff that we need on a daily basis.

I'm bored to tears sitting in the same spot on the couch day after day after day feeling like complete crap.

Rosie has no winter clothes because I haven't gone to the store and bought them. She has no tennis shoes or socks!

I saved $100 to buy her winter stuff, which should be nearly enough considering she will probably get some clothes for Christmas.

I have to get her:

-a coat (last year's coats fit but are getting tight and really worn)

-tennis shoes

-a package or two of socks because we always loose them.

-long sleeve shirts

-long stretchy cotton pants

-a couple sweatshirts and maybe a fleece thing

-a few pairs of cotton pajamas and I promised her she could pick out a night gown.

-If there is any money left over I'll get a package of 5t panties, because the 4t's are getting really worn and some are too small

-I'll look at boots too, if any are on sale.

I need to hit up the hateful Walmart. I dislike that store with a passion, everything from the parking lot to the way the employees act, how dirty it is, and what the company stands for. However, I can buy very affordable and durable winter clothing there. Target also has some cute shoes and polar fleece thingies on sale I think. I've noticed Target clothes cost a little more and get holes in them easier. Walmart kid clothes are super cheap and have never ripped!

Before I go clothes shopping I have to do some laundry. We have mounds of laundry. Everywhere. It's terrible what feeling sick for 4 months can do to your household.

I need to box up everything in Rosie's drawers from summer. She is at this strange in between size right now...some 4t things are too small, a lot of 5t is too big. I'm hoping some of her slightly large summer things will fit perfectly next spring. Who knows though, you can't really predict how fast or slow kids will grow. I'm not sure what size to buy for this winter. I'll probably just get a mix of 4t and 5t things...by the time the clothes shrink in the wash and Rosie grows, the 5t stuff will probably fit.

I just realized I have no clue what size shoes she wears! She's been wearing flip flops all spring and summer. I forgot what size we got.

I really need to get up and do something, obviously. But I really just want to lay here. I just feel so...yuck. All over.

Oh by the way, tomorrow I have an OB appointment and I should get to schedule the 20 week ultrasound!!!!

I'm sad because Tyler can't go. He will have to work. His work hours and commute time take up all of the open hours of the office, and he can't miss any work for the first 60 days or it's automatic termination. If we were to wait until the 60 days are up so he can take off, we might as well wait until birth to find out. Tyler is the one who really wanted me to have an ultrasound to find out the sex too, and he can't even be there for it! I'm hoping they can either record it on DVD with their machine (not sure?) or I will get my mom and/or my sister to go and record it with the video camera for him.

If I am able to make the appointment for 18 weeks instead of 20 weeks, then I can find out before Thanksgiving so we can tell family then. That's only a few weeks away!

I'm debating a little. I want to find out before Thanksgiving, but the baby will only be 18-19 weeks grown. The ultrasound will do a 3d/4d picture of the face...it will look more baby-like the farther along I am and less scary alien-like. But at the same time, I almost feel like it's cheating to get to see the face. It's one thing to know the sex, but I remember with Rosie how I waited and guessed and dreamed what her face would look like for months and months. It was so exciting to find out what (who) she looked like, you know?

But at the same time I do want a sneak peak of baby's face...

There are more important things to agonize over, like what if the baby has major birth defects!?! I am so worried about that.

I'm still paranoid about miscarriage too. I had nightmares all night last night that I was bleeding and going into labor. In one dream I had the baby already and it was a boy, tiny and perfect, but I didn't seem to realize that I wasn't pregnant anymore and I was freaking out that I was bleeding, even though it was just the post-birth bleeding.

Ok I'm going to get up and do something...starting with some laundry. I'll keep going until gagging makes me lay down. I can't believe I still feel so crappy. I felt great at this point in Rosie's pregnancy...